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no surprise here

Hey…I'm Priscillia Martinez,1st off,if you haven’t bothered to read to this point,read SOMETHING about me..Please be PATIENT, I'm not your normal girl.I don’t like being call SEXY or anything like that.It says don’t hit on me if your over 27.I'm being FUCKIN SERIOUS. I don’t mind..You TALKING to me,but obviously not reading my profile and being a perv is goin to get you blocked. And my life is a mever ending story. This chapter is the BEST one yet. I'm AWFULLY NICE. Sometimes too nice for my own good...But I will LEARN. I'm a person with a voice. I have a MIND, and I'm not afraid to speak it. It's almost impossible to HATE ME,but somehow certain people find a way.But I honestly don’t need people like that bringing me down.Right now, my life is PRETTY much PERFECT. Well,as close as it's going to get. If perfection existed, I think this would definantly be it. I try to live my life to it's fullest each and every SINGLE DAY, cause I know I won’t get far if I don’t.I get screwed up very easily cause I trust almost anyone, cause this is who I'm.So if you are here to tell me how to LOOK/ACT, don’t even bother. This is my life, & I'm living it the way I want to be. I'm AWARE that I can be a BITCH, but its people that influence that on me.I have done a lot of things in my past that I REGRET now. But they make me who I'm. I learn from them, & I will never make the same MISTAKES again.I'm very much a SUCKER for a HAPPY ENDING.I LOVE being happy with myself,cause I hardly am. Over these past few months however,I have been.I've got to say it really makes me feel ACCOMPLISHED.!!!

You like me, then I like you, you FUCKING SHIT me .?? Then I FUCK you back!

A regular muggle living in an all to muggle-world, a little part of me died when i realised i'd never get to go to hogwarts. i want to be 11 again. but it's too late, cause severus snape's already dead. why am i always just a little too late? I'm painfully want to say i miss you but the words already cursed..

Sunday, October 21

I find myself keep staring at him constantly, when I walk into a room full of people, but he's the first one i thinking for. But he's not inside the room/ he's the last person i think of at night and the first i think of in the morning. Everytime my phone rings I hope it's going to be HIM. If I know where he is I will go there even if its miles out of my way. I get all hyper when he's arround just to see if it impresses him when he looks at me, my heart skips a beat <3 b="b">

I'm sorry for everything that happened between us. Up till now i still cherish all the memories we had together. And when i think about you, i realized that no one could ever replace you as my dear one. And i've been missing you a lot lately. Sometimes i wonder if i still cross your mind too. I can honestly tell you that i really love you as my love my dear, and that i always want to care for you, be there for you. I want to be able to give you strength to pull through when you feel that life is tough.

I miss your laughter. I miss our random conversations. I miss how we end up laughing at ourselves. I miss how you would always complain me or care about me that i didn't eat or even smoking drinking . I just miss every memory we had together. Sad or happy. They're all still precious memories to me. I just really miss you.

I'm sorry we didn't have any chance to catch up with each other. I'm sorry i hadn't been a good girlfriend. I'm sorry if i wasn't there at your worst. But most of all, i'm sorry for making you cry. I swore that i would never make you cry. That day at phone, i was really sad to heard you cry. And now I realize that how much you show me that you love me. I always said i would make you laugh, i would make you smile. But i didn't.You're the first boyfriend that i never wanted to lose. But i never showed any effort to keep our relationship. And i'm sorry for that too. I just didn't know what to say to you. All this time i kept the guilt in my heart. Victor, you're the one person i can never replace. I've always saved you a spot in my heart because i love you. You were the best boy i've ever had. And i really appreciate everything you've done for me.

I'm just so sorry that i couldn't do much for you. Remember when i said i will stay with you.. I didn't mean it. I just didn't want to see you be sad cause i wasn't being a good girl, i was being a burden. I never wanted to leave you just like that. From now on you don't have to worry about being alone. Because i will do as i promised you before. I'll always be here to cheer you up. You'll always have me to depend on. I want to continue taking care of you. If its possible, i wish we could continue our relationship till the end, from where we left off.

I promise i will do what i can to make it up to you. I won't let you down anymore. I won't let you feel hurt again. I'll do my best, so that you will always have a smile on your face. I'll be there to make you laugh even when you want to cry. I hope its not too late for me to say all this. I will care for you and be there for you Victor. Now and always. I promise you. ♥

"You're the first person i think about.."
"I've always loved it when you smile. It makes me happy."
"The way you're not afraid to be yourself has always made me admire you."

All this I give you a birthday or valentines or whatever stuff as a present because it represented i love you so much.. If i were to give you another present, i would probably give you something that has to do with a cherry heart. Do you know why? Its because the meaning of the cherry, means to cherish. And you are one of the people that i'd want to cherish in my life. Cause i truly care for you.

Love,
Priscillia

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